Day 344: No more numbers

You won’t see any more numbers at the top of my posts for a while. Anyone who’s been following this blog knows I haven’t been the most regular of post-ers and the numbers don’t have meaning if I’m not working on my writing. br /br /Almost a year has passed since I started this. In that year I’ve gotten married, seen my husband through his dissertation, gone to India, helped open a new concert hall, made decisions that will change the shape of my life and worked very little on the book that still sits unfinished on my desk.br /br /I think of that book every day. Not just the nagging sense of knowing it lacks completion, but thinking about the characters, how they will change when I come back to them, the ways in which they change me.br /br /Something else that’s been on my mind a lot lately is opportunity and safety. One of the decisions made that will change my life is that at the end of this year — three months to be exact — I will leave my highly successful job and become what I have wanted to be for so long: a full-time writer. br /br /I’m very very lucky to have a husband who really believes in my writing. He believes in it so much that he’s willing to support me through it, financially and emotionally. I’ve taken a lot of chances in my life, but I know somehow that this bet — the bet on me and my writing — is one I never would take on my own. br /br /Which brings me to the word “safety”. The reason I never would have bet everything on my writing is my need to be safe, to not fall. I don’t have the net of family in many ways. Undoubtedly, some of the treatments are viagra online purchase http://www.offscriptband.com/store/ costly but they are certainly not the same. For most of the men, ED is viagra tablets online the inability to attain or sustain an erection even after proper stimulation. No ready and wanting, you will gain harder and fuller generic prescription viagra erection and last longer in bed to satisfy her in bed. Sperms fertilize the egg cell or ovum in the ovary that is attributable to ovarian cysts occurs when the sacs get full of the fluids and this may very well lead to erection problems as well as other health conditions such as offscriptband.com cialis samples diabetes, cardiovascular disease and blood pressure problems. Parents who support and keep you from harm are not part of my life equation. Instead, in some ways, for at least one parent, I’ve been part of the net. My sister has been the other part. And it’s been a heavy load. The choices I’ve made because of it have kept me from some of my dreams. They were always my choices, but in the way of life, they weren’t exactly fair. But then, what is.br /br /It’s not a natural feeling for me to have someone who will catch me or hold me on their shoulders. And I think there’s a certain amount of that which is necessary to enable me to take the huge risks. But I got lucky. And now I’m going for the big risk. And if it works out, the payout won’t be in money (it could, but probably won’t), it’ll be in knowing that I took my chance to follow my dream and made the most of it.